City on a Hill

City on a Hill

The city on a hill

Once upon a time there was a shining city on a hill.

It wasn’t perfect, but in an imperfect world it was as close to perfect as the people had ever known.  Only three promises were made: the chance to be alive, they would be free and they could pursue their own happiness. Life, Liberty and the Pursuit of Happiness.

They loved their freedom.  They clung to it.  They wrapped themselves in it.  They fought to preserve and they died to share it.

Freedom was supported by two important strengths.  The people and the press.  The people allowed themselves to governed, as a wild animal allows itself to be tamed.  The governors served at the will of the people.  Fortunately good people stepped forward.  From among them they would vote on who would lead best.  These fine people would serve as leaders then quietly return to their lives and others would step forward.

The press wielded the greatest power.  Journalists, they were called would examine carefully each and everything about the leaders and inform the people about decisions, considerations and if there was any wrongdoing.  No stone was left unturned.  Journalists cared more about the telling the whole truth than they did about their own ideas.  It was an incredibly difficult job.  Imagine having to tell the truth when doing so would defeat leaders you admired, or causes you cared about. But the press alone would bring truth to the light and without them corruption would be unbridled.  The fear of the press and the exposure of the truth kept those hungry for power, or money, under some control.  When on occasion a scoundrel made their way to power their deeds were oncovered by these mighty heroes of the press and the people armed with knowledge made choices to replace them.

The people had never experienced such freedom.  They were exuberant and freedom led to innovation and prosperity.  Passionate arguments, fierce debates occured but the core principle of freedom acted as a beacon and shone through the fog to light their way through the most painful choices.

Some in the city did not prosper.  Some in fact were enslaved.  It took too long, but in time the principle of freedom had conquered even the worst acts of men.

In an imperfect world some have more, and some have less.  All the great civilization guaranteed was freedom, not wealth, and not fairness.  As some prospered others became jealous and bitter.  They grumbled and pity found a home in the heart of the press.  Guilt and pressure began to be applied through the power of the press.  Those who had acheived more, recognized that others had less.  Out of love for their fellow man they began to pay a portion of their own earnings to lift up their neighbors.

It seemed however that no amount would satisfy their jealousy.  The more they gave, the greater the need. Whenever anyone had something better they wanted it too.  The less fortunate stopped thinking and working entirely on how to gain the wealth through their own work and instead concentrated on how they could take more from their neighbors for themselves.  They recognized that the power was held by the press and they infiltrated.  Day and night, they spread their bitterness and resentment.  A new idea was born in them.

You see, jealousy has only two ends.  Admission of the jealousy or theft of what you want to possess.  God had instructed them not to covet what their neighbor possessed but they heard Him not.  He knew too well that jealousy leads to destruction.

Consumed with anger about the injustice that some would have so much while they seemingly had so little the idea began to grow and new leaders who believed in this new idea made their way to leadership.  Fairness not freedom became their goal.  It had not been enough that they had been created equal by God but they would see to an earthly equality by taking from the rich and giving to the poorer.  They didn’t like God’s authority or instruction that the least among us should be given charity.  They were insulted by this God and they banned Him in all arenas.

One day, the final blow came in a horrible uprising.  All the riches were taken and given to the poor in one bold move by the leaders.  The poor gloated and celebrated.  Cheering and toasting themselves the leaders went on for days.  Those days turned into weeks and weeks turned to years.

After taking all they had ever wanted they were still somehow unsatisfied.  Puzzled, bitter and angry again the people began to blame one another, for surely someone must be at fault.  The leaders were ousted and new ones put in power but still they could not achieve the happiness they were certain this idea of fairness would lead them to find. How could it be that having what others had didn’t make them happy?  Wasn’t all of this in pursuit of happiness?  This too was unfair!

They began to consider that perhaps they had taken the wrong path, but it was too late.  The fields had been overgrown.  Those with ideas and industry moved to faraway lands where their earnings would not be stolen and their hard work mocked.  Their resources could not be mined, their citizens were disheartened, discouraged, even slothenly.  The people did not know how to work or care for themselves.  Powerful enemies began to circle.  The city was conquered.

The shining city on a hill was no more.  Some people, remembered the old ways though. They remembered the ideas that had once made them great, they remembered what it was like to be free.  To have nothing hold you back but your own determination.  They were called Patriots.  They passed the truth on to their children, quietly, secretly in their homes and churches.  They prayed and planned, just as we are praying and planning now.

So my children, hold these truths in your heart.  Know that you have nothing in this world if you are not free, nothing.  Freedom is your true inheritance.  It’s what your father, and his father and his father before him fought for and were willing to die for in our military.  The time will come, your time will come to fight, with ideas, thoughts or with your lives but once again we will rebuild the city.

“Mom, did the city have a name?”
“Yes. America.”

Surviving the Obamination

Surviving the Obamination

Surviving the Obamination

I have about a half dozen things I want to share so strap in! I can go for as long as the coffee holds out. If you are new to the HWE blog, I’ve been blogging for about 6 yrs. This is what I call A Housewife on a Soapbox post. It’s an oldie but a goodie, posted originally after the election which began the Obamination.

First of all I want to hit someone with a shoe, preferably a Democrat. I’ll have plenty of opportunities at the family Christmas parties but I don’t think that really sends the message of faith, hope and love.
So our Governor here in Illinois was locked up, that was pretty cool. Selling Obama’s seat to the highest bidder. It comes as no surprise that Jesse Jackson Jr. was a front runner. His daddy has been doing business that way since the 60′s. I think I actually saw a coffee can with his picture on it by a cash register at the Quick Stop with a nice little plea for a donation. It read something like this:
“My name is Jesse Jackson Jr. People call me JJ and that hurts my feelings. For a long time now my daddy has been buying me jobs that pay okay but don’t allow me any opportunity to start my own brand of corruption. Without power I will have no way to extort money on my own, be a man, and stand on my own two feet just like a learned from Rev. Farrakan at the 3,620 Man March. With the recently purchased Presidency a vacancy in the US Senate is up for bids! Daddy says I can have it for Christmas but it’s not going to come cheap. This is where you come in. Please donate whatever money you have in your wallet to my cause. In fact if you are quiet you can probably slip the wallet from the purse of the lady in front of you. go ahead! It’s for a good cause! My name is JJ and I will soon be your Senator! Thank you for your support.”
And so it begins.
Blago (think Drago Rocky V), our Illinois Governor has fallen hard and if he has any sense he will take a few down with him. Of course just like in the mob if you keep your mouth shut they will take care of your family so maybe that’s his deal. I know about these things, I watched Goodfellas, and Godfather like a thousand times.
I am very excited to see the corruption surrounding Obama before he ever steps foot in the White House, it’s good sign. Rezco was convicted, Blago was indicted, and the chips will continue to fall. Ah breathe in that CHANGE! What a relief to have a fresh new brand of politics. Oh I forgot Obama smokes. The air is a bit stale and smells like a pack of menthol lights.

I wonder why we never saw pictures of him smoking during the campaign? Negative image the media wouldn’t go for huh?
Then there is the economy. It seems to be circling the bowl. I think this is going to be a long cold night. We have now taken enormous leaps toward socialism in industry, a large stimulus package, higher taxes, and then healthcare.
For us we will begin the year by saving every penny. Literally. No more pennies in between the seats. We will be stretching the usefulness of every item, cooking and baking from scratch. We will not buy books, magazines or newspapers, we will be using the library even more. I am thinking about buying new hair clippers, and cutting the guys hair once again. Music can come from the internet, movies from netflix. So those purchases are finished. I am sewing again, and what is done around here will be mom’s handiwork. I will be networking with friends to share hand me down clothes, toys, etc. We have a few purchases to make for school and I will have nearly everything I need from now on out with only a few exceptions. We will be growing a garden in the spring, working on our home, and building up our resources. Food, medicine, etc. We will probably purchase a shotgun in the spring. We have bows for hunting too, should that become necessary.
All this seems extreme. It is. I’m not digging a tunnel or a bomb shelter (yet). But preparedness is important to me. Higher taxes, failing industries, means fewer options, less product in the market, it means inflation, a weak dollar, and it means shortages. No jobs will be cmpletely safe. Obama, like Clinton has great disdain for the military and they see military funding as a cash cow they can slaughter to feed their programs. This will weaken us as a nation. I know this family will continue to enjoy our life, and who we are will not change. If we are wrong then when times get better, we will have lots of canned goods to eat and money saved. So where is the harm? The boys will have had fun learning to shoot, hunt, and be outside more. We will have learned the difference between wants and needs. I do believe the economy will turn aroun but I think we are in for a rough 7-8 yrs, minimum.
Corey shared a great analogy that is perfect for what is happening to the American people right now. How do you cage a wild pig? Put good food in the yard in the same place. He will come to eat the easy meal. Add one side of a fence but continue to feed him well. Then add another and another all the while feeding him well. Add the gate but leave it open and feed him more. Soon you can close the gate and he won’t try to leave, then you can feed him slop, and he has no coice but to eat it and be thankful.
The first of the year my focus will be solely on conservation, preparedness, and surviving the Obamination.
How’s that for starting upbeat?
Re-reading that post, I realize how smart I really am, occasionally I forget ;)
As an update, we have indeed been frugal and pinching pennies as I indicated. The kids are taking firearms training in the fall.
The Obamination is worse than I imagined. Approaching a new election the stakes are higher, the arrogance thicker, the smoke screen unbearable. By the way, here in the great state of Illinois, now our last TWO Governors are convicts. Mob rule is alive and well in Obama’s home state and he has successfully transferred his personal brand of corruption to DC.
four more years of Obamination anyone?

She was wrong

She was wrong

Once upon a time a young girl with ideas and ideals set out into the world believing she could make an impact. So naive was she, that she would engage those who opposed her ideas the most. Sometimes for just fun, sometimes to sharpen her arguments but mostly because she believed truth could not be denied when brought into the light.

She was wrong.

 

Justice and Mercy

Justice and Mercy

Justice in one hand, mercy in the other. As my day began this morning at 5:30 am, this was my contemplation. With my children, regardless of their age, I am their mother, their parent. Justice in this vocation is better described as consequences but mercy still fits.

Tough Love, aptly named because it is so tough to hold fast to consequences with people with love down to the core of our being. Parenting isn’t for wimps.

Even when you have the backbone for it, and I do have the backbone for it, you have to know when to respond with justice (consequences) and when to show mercy.

The truth is, I have no idea when to do what so I turn to my Lord and King. He gave the words from a song I love. “I lean not on my own understanding. My life is in the hands of the maker of heaven. I give it all to you God, trusting that you’ll make something beautiful out of me.”

I knew I had pleased Him greatly. He wants to be there for me in my every question and when I allow Him to guide me and care for me, He is joyful. He is faithful in His clarity, and guidance.

With great peace I knew this moment called for mercy. Perhaps in mercy and in meeting this need, my child will see God’s love modeled in me.

For this I pray.

Robin

Can you really teach a man to shop?

Can you really teach a man to shop?

There is just something irresistible about a guy with a mullet. His individuality shaved into lines above the ears to give the mullet an edgy look. Add to this spectacular look a an oversize t-shirt of Goofy and baggy cargo pants, then finish it off with some Wal-Mart tennis shoes and ladies you have yourself the makings of a god.

Yeah, I didn’t buy that either in high school. Which is why I didn’t give my gorgeous husband the time of day back then. This little wardrobe choice was only one of many fiascos he donned in those days. Another personal favorite of mine, his Road Toad t-shirt. not. Just for the record, I have photographic evidence to support these claims, which sadly I have been forbidden to post to the world.

Over the last 14 years I have gradually helped him move toward adulthood in many areas of his life. The clothing however proved a tougher challenge than I had anticipated.

Fortunately I love superheroes so his 161 superhero t-shirts didn’t bother me. I saw them as job security. I mean really, was he going to get hit on and run off to have secret rendezvous wearing a Thor t-shirt? No. It actually feels like a great disguise, because he is devastatingly handsome, funny, smart, faithful, kind, sexy – truly the total package hidden beneath a Justice League tee for me alone to appreciate.

In the last several years we reached a lovely compromise, he agreed to wear his grown up clothes (as I called them) on dates and events with me. I took in the evenings with delight. But over the last few months a strange thing has happened. He has begun to feel uncomfortable in his persona. Somehow those clothes just didn’t fit, not the letters on the tag but they didn’t match the man he is.

This was exciting news for me. I love him however he is, and his clothes don’t matter to me. But the prospect of getting to create a series of new looks, shopping and dressing him up – yes! I am having the best time.

The hitch he didn’t want to shop, and he didn’t want to try anything on in any store, ever. After taking some measurements I got busy. Frugal as always I passed the department stores and headed for Thrift, Consignments and my personal favorite, GoodWill.

Starting with his business attire, which had previously consisted of golf shirts, jeans and khakis – I found amazing suits, slacks, shirts and shoes. Designer names for no more than $4 per piece. At first there was a lot of returns as we found what he really liked and what he felt comfortable in, but now I got this. He has several pairs of designer dress shoes, never even worn for $8. He loves his shoes. He looks so dapper going to work now.

As summer closes in it became abundantly clear that my man needed summer clothes.   Badly. He wanted to go to Target, conscience of spending too much, and maybe Kohls. At Kohls we bought 3 pairs of Haggar shorts and a great pair of comfy, casual summer shoes. The total was $119.00. He was horrified.

As we walked away from the counter I said, “Now, class is in.”

I headed to the GoodWill store, which coincidently he hates. I purchased for him, 8 pairs of shorts – 7 Kohls brands – Haggar, & Izod and one pair of Merona’s from Target with the tags still on them. I also picked up a pair of sleep pants, and a pair of shorts for William. I returned 4 blouses I had purchased the week before, and my total cost after the return… $6.39. (without the return it would have been $18.00)

He almost passed out into a rack of knock off perfumes! As we walked to the car he looked like a man who had stolen something. He had begrudgingly tried the shorts on, he liked them all and he had paid $6.39. ‘This must be illegal’ his demeanor betrayed, his eyes darting around the parking lot waiting for the po-po to close in on us.

Then, I took him to Target. I purchased shorts and a shirt which took an act of Congress because as he said, “I can’t pat full price I feel like I’m getting ripped off!” The best part was when we saw the exact same shorts on the rack for $21.99 that we had just purchased for $3 at GW. “Check it out!” He said when we passed them. He wanted to climb up on the counter and holler, “SUCKERS!” to all the shoppers but I restrained him.

I picked up another new pair of shoes for him and we headed out to the car. Straight to Kohls, where he marched in and promptly returned their 3 puny pairs of shorts and collected his $100.00 back. Class dismissed.

Blessings, Robin

A Strong Man

A Strong Man

I’m going to bed tonight so thankful for the strength of my dear husband I am hard pressed to find the words to adequately express how much I leaned on him tonight.

As the head of the family, the toughest decisions often fall on his shoulders. For many years of our marriage I would rant, or harp, grind down his resolve or argue him into agreeing with me. This is not an extraordinary woman way of behaving but it’s who I was. It’s who I struggle mightily to leave behind.

I asked God to raise up my husband to lead our family. Unfortunately what I meant at the time was, “raise him up to see things my way.” God knowing the deeper desire of my heart gave me what I needed, not what I wanted.

Tonight, my husband did the same for our son.

When you find a strong man, thank God for him. Let him be the man of the house.

Blessings,Robin

Choose wisely.

Choose wisely.

God gives us the freedom to choose between good and evil. He does not however give us the right to define them.

With so many issues, debates, and discussions swirling around and an important election around the corner, this idea about the freedom to choose but not define is marinating in my mind.

How often do we want what we want and after prayer and discernment we decide God wants us to be happy even though are choice is outlined in Scripture, in teaching and Tradition as a sin, or evil?

Okay, evil? Evil is a strong word, right? When I think evil I think of some cat eating serial killer.

But herein lies the rub. The idea that there are shades of gray, is man-made. God wants all of us. All of our heart, all of our soul, all of our lives. He wants us to turn away more everyday away from the things of this world and earthly desires and toward Him. He calls us to be Holy. Holy.

Not be a good person. Not do more right than wrong. Not live avoiding the big sins, but to give Him everything. No other god before – not any other desire (god) before Him. Not a sexual desire, not a personal desire, not a need, a weakness, a failure, a shortcoming, nothing, before Him.

Taken in that context, the road to Heaven appears to be much less traveled.

When we say yes to our desires, desires that contrast with His Word, His commandments, His Church, we are choosing between good and evil. Good is with God, evil is without Him. We can think we are finding some loophole, and it might help us sleep at night, for awhile. But we can only choose whether or not we choose God. We cannot define what pleases Him.

Choose wisely.

Housewifery is a lot like rearranging deck chairs on the Titanic.

Housewifery is a lot like rearranging deck chairs on the Titanic.

Housewifery is a lot like rearranging deck chairs on the Titanic (which is a terrible movie).

Any one task is the ship. It doesn’t matter how many times you do it, it’s going down. The kitchen doesn’t stay clean, laundry doesn’t stay clean, carpets get icky and hairy all over again, especially if you have an 80 lb. lab-chow-possum mix dog in your house.

I got up this morning thankful the mercies that greet me each day and the grace to take up my work. I said my prayers, had breakfast with my dh, made his lunch, sipped coffee, fixed my hair (elaborately in a ponytail holder) and got running shoes on. Oh, I don’t run per se but they are a staple in my everyday life and the Flylady.com says to put ‘em on so I do.

As I sat down to prepare some lesson plans I got this sinking feeling, that, “what is the point again, Lord?” feeling. All this will pass away. All of it. So why bother with all these details? Why strive for goodness, greatest, or dare I say it… perfection?

(pause)

Oh, I don’t know I was hoping you would know. It’s honest question.

(pause)

So neither of us know. great news.

As I typed this a giant, roaring crack of thunder cut loose! ohhhkaaayyy.

Let me think. Christ didn’t have to come down here to save our sinking butts, but He did. I just want to give Him thanks and praise and glory.

If my kids don’t care for their toys, clothes, car, etc – I feel unappreciated, and I know they do not truly grasp the sacrifices that were made to provide those items. So how much more does God need me to care for and tend my blessings, that He might know how much I love and appreciate His great sacrifice?

I end that with a question mark because I’m really thinking this out loud this morning. Maybe other days the answer is written on my heart in clear, large print, but today I guess it’s smudgy.

As I think about it, any day that I do this work for me, or for my hubby or the kids, I can feel very drained and hopeless at the end of the day or the beginning of the next day. If all my efforts are for Him who gave me this husband these children, this home, and these blessings the earthly ship is still indeed sinking. But if I get out of the sinking ship and keep my eyes focused on Christ, I can walk on water.

Yeah, now I’m ready to take on this day.

Blessings, Robin

Dawn is breaking

Dawn is breaking
Sitting on the porch soaking in this spectacular spring day, I can’t help but reflect and smile. My birthday passed a few days ago. I turned 41 years old. I don’t feel the way I thought 41 year old people probably feel. 40 was no big deal, I didn’t have any terrible panic attack. 41 didn’t cause any earthquakes either but I am finding myself a bit more contemplative.
Where do I go from here. I have tween, a teen and a young adult. I’m so happily married as the email implies but what do I want to do with the second half of my life?
I have thought of going back to school, immersing myself even more into youth ministry, finishing the books that are gathering dust in my Word Doc folder, but it doesn’t feel right. I spent the first 41 years moving as fast as I possibly could. I wanted to smell the roses while I ran with them in my hand. I wanted to do it all and squeeze in as much as I could into one day.
I don’t feel like I need to do that now. I don’t have anything at all to prove. Nothing. I know who I am. I have outgrown regrets because I have seen God take every mistake and turn it into glorious light.
The work of my life is not over, I still have a family to raise and all. But the pressure is gone. Perhaps we reach a place on the journey where we glimpse the view? Perhaps the trials of my life have blessed me with unwavering faith in God’s plan?
Joy is coming into focus. Joy has rested in the seat of my soul many years. There it has been nurtured and fed by obedience, faithfulness, by an abundance of love and blessings, and trust in the Lord. Forgive the brief foray into the sci-fi realm, but it feels like a power core, an intense source of energy that cannot be destroyed by an X-wing fighter or properly fired blaster. The joy feels like it is beginning to radiate through my body.
Imagine laying on the beach at sunrise. You have your own body heat to keep you warm but as the sun begins to rise it kisses your toes. You begin to feel the warmth move up your entire body until the sun is fully risen and you are bathed in light and warmth.
I feel like the sun is rising in my life and the joy is beginning to reach all the dark and cold extremities. Not fully risen but breaking.
Indeed, a new dawn is breaking over me and I intend to stretch out my arms and my legs, close my eyes and let it be.
Amen.

prom, another thing homeschoolers do well.

prom, another thing homeschoolers do well.

My beautiful daughter is getting ready for Prom. She is a vision. In shorts, flip-flops, hair pulled back and one of my t-shirts heading to her best friend’s house to do hair and make-up. I can’t wait to see her all dressed up looking stunning.

I remember 13 years ago when I began sharing with family that we were homeschooling. Someone said, well it just makes me sad, because she will be so pretty and she’ll miss out on all the milestones of high school like Prom.

Both the kids have attended homecoming, proms, winter dances, homecoming games, and all that jazz. With friends from so many different schools, different homeschool groups and of varying ages they have had every opportunity to sample some of the fun things we all remember from high school without having to be immersed in the muddy drama we all remember as well.

I didn’t know back then that they would have these opportunities. I wasn’t sure if missing Prom was really something to regret. I knew the negatives outweighed the positives and so there was never really any question.

This Prom, $50 tickets, full meal, excellent music, well chaperoned, no drugs, no drama, no nonsense, just friends having a wonderful time celebrating their youthfulness. What’s very cool is God is invited. What’s very cool is that our God is bigger than the world and not afraid to let His faithful enjoy secular music, dancing, and fun.

You have to love how God works everything out. All things working to bring about good things for my family. Another day that I thank God for the wisdom, strength and fortitude it has taken to homeschool. Thank you Jesus!